Sad revelation

I was at my OB appointment today, and realized that it's no longer fun to go there. I don't look forward to each one with the sense of joy that I did with the first pregnancy. Each time I go there, I feel more and more like crying as I sit there and wait. Kind of sucks.

Heartbeat was good; 145. Although baby was hiding on the OB a bit, took him a couple of minutes to find a good spot.

Waiting until the 17th when I have my ultrasound in Winnipeg.